Everybody Needs A Fence To Lean On

Everybody Needs A Fence To Lean On

I am looking, lookin' for something
can't quite put my mind at ease
'cause i need to see, see an opening
take my arms in and bring
bring it together, make it warmer
all for me...

Lookin' for the sun in England
Throw him a lifeline cause he's sinkin'
cuz everybodys got their enemies
and everybody needs a fence to lean on
remember how the hospitals were vacant

Cuz everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies

I am watching, guarding the moments
they are leaving like all of you
you're looking at nothin'
and walking through darkness
Today could be the same for me too

Cuz everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies
everybody's got their enemies

I am watching, guarding the moments
they are leaving like all of you
you're looking at nothing
walking through darkness
Today could be the same for me too

We Should Go to France

We Should Go to France

We should go to paris,
We should go and dance
Cause no one really likes us
We should go to France
The promise that you gave me
This, this, this is gonna last
But no one really likes us
We should go to France

We’ve been taking it slow, oh, oh, oh
But now it’s time to ask
Do you even like me,
This is it your chance
The promise that you gave me
This, this, this is gonna last
But you don’t even like me
Alone I’ll go to France

I want to be, I want to be

The one you love
So listen to me
I don’t want to be the one you lost
I want to be, I want to be
The one you love
So listen to me
I don’t want to be the one you lost
I want to be, I want to be
The one you love
So listen to me
I don’t want to be the one you lost

We should have gone to Paris
We should have had that dance
Cause no one really liked us
We should have gone to France.

帶狀皰疹 II

拿了抗病毒藥物回家，心理不再那麼惶恐。只是頭部左側的神經仍是抽痛不已、整個人疲累不堪、不時發燒，完全是靠著普拿疼壓住發熱的症狀，稍稍緩解難耐的痛楚。接下來的兩天，整個人病懨懨，躺在床鋪上，甚麼事情都做不了。勉強自己吃三餐、服藥、倒頭睡，然後汗流浹背地起來，到浴室洗個熱水澡。才稍微快活，然後重複進食、吃藥、睡覺、滿身大汗、沖澡的循環。 第三天、第四天、第五天過去了，那是五月的第二個星期日；母親節。我允諾母親回家過節，吃飯，我步履蹣跚的拖著病體，回到台中。沒精打采的，我真是沒力氣。一路上我走路搖搖晃晃，彷彿就是被放在一整個傾斜的平面上，我得使勁地平衡。 我真不知道該怎麼形容這樣的感覺: 我的地是斜的，傾向右邊，走路搖頭晃腦的，連E都看出我走路總是偏向一邊。我沒辦法跑。彷彿像是一艘觸礁的船，沉沒之日不遠矣。我沒耐心好好地跟SR說話，在越洋電話裏面數度面臨溝通的窘境。SR說他相當擔心，我明白他真是相當擔心，但無奈頭痛消退的速度緩慢，而整個人的平衡感也日漸消失。 銷假上班，總共請了四天的病假，回到公司還得跟眾人講述如何生病等等，這時頭已經不痛了，但我的地平線仍是斜的。本來想過幾天平衡感就會漸漸回復，怎知道我的左臉竟然麻痺了，在如何的擠眉弄眼都沒反應，真是心慌，不知道能否恢復。臺大醫院的醫師說這是顏面神經受損，是頭部帶狀皰疹的常見副作用，要至少兩個星期才會漸漸恢復，但也不一定可以完全恢復，給了我維他命A要我回家休養。 日子一天天過去，臉部神經沒有絲毫復原的跡象，心急之餘趕緊找了一個針灸大夫；也許真是醫術高明，他的診所滿是老王賣瓜的成功醫療案例，非常驕傲的要我放心，及時找到他可以很快復原。我總共去了兩次，每一次臉上、頭頂上都是插滿著針，好不難受，但臉部麻痺的情況也竟從此漸漸好轉，前後共一個多月，我才從帶狀皰疹的各種後遺症恢復。 我從沒有這麼病過，在一個多月的期間裡，走在傾斜的馬路上，面對的日落的街道盡頭，心裡滿是絕望與無助的感覺；只是現在回想起來，像是船過水無痕了，曾經如此椎心刺骨的痛楚竟然就這麼消逝無蹤。但這也是好的，要不然留下永久的後遺症可真難以想像。 這就是人生吧，甚麼都留不住。好的壞的都是。留不住。